Just back a week from a life-changing 12 days overseas! If photos, video were not slowly appearing online, I’d never believe the recent amazing-ness in which I’d participated. Thank you to Scenic & Advisory for the opportunity to be a part of ‘CONFLUX’:: this stellar international lineup of producers/djs: playing alongside DnB legend NOOKIE, this past March 2nd in Birmingham, UK. On the one hand I was a bit freaked out and often wondering why I was even *there*…but when I relaxed, I looked around and realized I was surrounded by friends of *YEARS,* producers who’s music I was supporting, and those directly responsible for encouraging me to keep dj-ing. Such a pleasure to meet Nookie over there again (someone who’s productions have inspired me to love these DnB sounds for over 15 years). All of us working for months in advance to close great distances and fly to be together to hang out as a group for but a few days. All struggling to make flights, survive financially, deal with children or work commitments and so on…brought together by the love of drum and bass and nurturing relationships we value so greatly. Just blows me away.
While the internet helps us to close immediate gaps-in-between-get-togethers; once together in the same room, car, bus, plane, I discovered (again this trip) how much we have in common, how much there is to share, and how grateful I am to be a part of a (world wide) community so rich in diversity, experience, creativity, etc. Friends from Greece, all over the UK, Ireland, Poland, Italy, USA, Belgium, Germany, (more…) had a chance to catch up for hours, exchange opinions about culture, music, politics, the details of our countries. More and more we find ways to help each other with our unique skills and desire to push drum and bass. Every time I make a trip like this, I don’t doubt for a second why I do so. A ticket is nothing compared to the depth of the experience of all of us being together, mixing, sharing, eating, loving, being creative, laughing. I don’t think I’ve laughed so much in ages! UK English roast dinner in Redditch was epic with all company present. So good to hug my friend’s children and be close again. Even more humbling was having two of my dearest friends travel to Birmingham as well: co promoter for JUICE!, Maria (my gawd woman I love being in the same pod with your pea-ness); and dear friend Sarah (who is apprenticing-to-mix with me too). How wonderful to finally twist her arm so Maria and I (who have been repeatedly) could share with her how amazing Europe is. Seeing you ladies out there while I mixed my little mom-heart out meant the world to me.

I’ve never dropped a double like that live nor busted out so many bangers in 45 minutes…but oddly I felt at home and well, happy-as-fuck, if you don’t mind my saying. I think everyone knows how serious I am about professionally promoting drum and bass, and that I just dj for fun. I have to say though, lately I’ve been finding a lot of peace mixing! It’s truly an art at which I do love to excel; and I know where my heart is. I wish there were more women involved in the industry overall, but I am grateful for that support here in Portland and connecting with some of those ladies in the UK as well. And I’m thankful to all of the guys who’ve pushed me to keep on with this crazy love-of-dnb-I have. Playing this gig meant so much to me. I am still humbly reeling from being there.

Holland was warm with kindness, and rich with history and cultural diversity. Despite the fact that I was there 20 years ago, I saw a different side this time, thanks to my kind host there. What a beautiful place….with water everywhere, tilted buildings hundreds of years old. This city blew my mind. I have never felt so like I was on another planet—and I LIVE IN PORTLAND. Older folks are super cool, the culture is not *everything-phobic* like in the U.S. Everyone speaks Dutch, French, and English fluently. Really puts into perspective so many things for me. Amsterdam reminded me of everything I love/miss about Europe….and cruising the streets on a bike and with cherished friends filled my heart with joy and soul with renewed freshness….. til the next trip hehehee. Weather was lovely and (honestly) not-all-that-different from PDX. Perhaps the warm company, Dutch coffee, and strolling the streets with friends was all I needed. Taking in the new architecture, art, typography and graphics refilled my creative reserves too. Yeh, barely enough time there so no time like the present to start vibin’ on the next trip. Hehehe.

Time to look forward locally. As the Groove Suite moves into an in-flux position (and out of their current space), JUICE! will have their last (Local Northwest Assets) show there March 29th as they look for a new location in Portland. May 31st JUICE! show brings us to a slightly larger venue, the Rose, which we’re very pleased will be hosting our night for UTAH JAZZ (London, UK), KID HOPS (Seattle), and CODENAME (PDX). Stay posted for deets as our 2013 homes evolve for continued shows last Fridays of every other month.